Heal My Heart Cope

On a frigid January evening, with the purple shadows of the Rocky Mountains encompassing me; I entered a small basement in Breckenridge. Anticipation overcame me as my ears eagerly waited to devour the tones of Citizen Cope. There were no seats in the little room and I had the privilege of standing right next to the mic. I was so close, when Cope took his rightful place behind the microphone, acoustic guitar in tow; I could feel the energy vibrating off of him. It seemed fitting that he was so high on a cocktail of who knows what drugs. His music is like a narcotic, the hard ones, that addict you after the first hit. I’m not the only one he effects this way, when his gritty raw melodies wafted out into the crowd…there was not one person who didn’t become entranced. With Citizen, you can tell music is honestly his most powerful dependence. The vice that has helped him endure the stories he depicts. Tales of pain, enlightenment, love, sorrow, exuberance, and depression. Tales that are to vibrantly real to be myths. You’ve probably heard Cope before without knowing. He’s not an artist cut from the mainstream cloth(hence why Cope records and produces for his own label, Rainwater Recordings) but many of his songs have drifted into pop culture’s arena. “Let the Drummer Kick”, seems to be the song that received the most recognition, having been featured on several soundtracks and even commercials. However, Cope’s aresnal is loaded with musical artillery. “Sideways” knocked me off my feet, my family found it during a dark period when we were attempting to cope with the loss of a family member. Nothing, resonated more with me in those dim moments than that song. His voice, was the physical representation of the pain we felt. The heartache he conveyed, carried the healing I was seeking. Through that song, I felt understood; without even having to speak. That was the beginning of my dependence on Citizen Cope, now deeply ingrained in me. Now, I go to Cope when I’m sad, when I’m frustrated, when I’m in need of liberation; and he converses with me. I take my emotions to him and he funnels my feelings through the siphon that is his penetrating vocal power. Never, has there been a time I didn’t leave Citizen Cope feeling better than when I came to him. It’s the kind of unlimited understanding that is reliable, Cope’s lyrical versatility has a malleability able to maintain relevance. So no matter how your feeling, Citizen has the tune to match your mood, and soothe whatever ails you. I suggest you plan a meeting with him soon, and I’m sure it won’t take long for you to develop the same kind of dependence on his musical medicine as I have.

 

A Requiem to You Love.

 

I picture you sometimes and wonder how it could of been.

If maybe only everything about our circumstances was different.

See really thats the only thing that ruined us…circumstances.

I couldn’t alter the fact that you were broken when I met you.

Beautifully jagged and seductively tragic…I was sucked into your sinkhole.

But it wasn’t all you…I had cracks in my construction too, and thats probably why we were so attracted.

Except the collection of our fragments…didn’t connect to create one cohesive piece.

Leaving us painfully disfunctional…leading to our beautiful decease.

But I will say this….our love was a beast.

Magnetic and powerful in a spontaneously combustible way.

So unpredictable.

One minute were smitten sittin’ comfortable…

And the next instant we seem to be the author of each others problems.

This is where it gets ironic and demented…because we were the only ones who could solve them.

Every emotional bruise you inflicted, could only be healed with your attention, and always always…

The, “I hate you I wish you would die.”…metamorphosed into “I love you and I never meant to make you cry.”

But still we continued to lie.

Not just lies that fractured our trust like, “Don’t trip, thats just a friend.”

But lies about the nature of us, like how we were so opposite, and not in the complimentary way.

More like, our incompatibility is causing contemptment to flourish.

The resentment was leaving our love malnurished.

Because I…gave you all the parts of me, parts I never knew existed.

Then you went and did some b*t$h s%i#…cuz insecurity had you twisted.

Maybe you thought…you would hurt me before I could hurt you.

But that was never my intention.

Even when you annoyed me to my wits end.

Your smile was more than sufficient incentive.

I would of…been everything that you could ever need.

If you would have matched my loyalty.

But no amount of denial could diminish the facts.

Our cons outweighed our pros, and I wish I could go back…

Cover our tracks and meet you in another lifetime, where we would be a positive match.

Still, I picture you sometimes.

And in my mind you have that glimmer in your eyes that initially captured me.

And I remember that we used to write poetry together.

How you enhanced my creativity and encouraged me.

You saw into the internal me…crept deep inside.

Cradled the soft parts I usually hide.

That made me vulnerable…which is the most terrifying emotion I am capable of possessing.

Which had me up late nights obsessing.

About your touch…

About your lips…

About how much I really missed…just talking to you.

Like you actually listened, not just waited until I was through…

With what I was saying so we could go back to talking about you.

Thats what gets you addicted to a person.

The little things that give a love endurance.

Like random moments of passion that gave me reassurance.

That I had things locked down…cuffed without restraints.

I never had complaints…and neither did you.

Somehow all our fire sparked a fuse…

Igniting heated disputes.

And now…all of that tenderness has been incinerated.

And all that compassion has turned to indignation.

I guess our adoration had an expiration.

When love dies…for awhile things are complicated.

Because no one wants to lose that intense sensation.

That vibrant thing that brings illumination to all the darkness.

Love addicts…we’d go back for another fix.

Even though the high will never be the same…

After so much abuse…

Our love just didnt hit the way it use to.

Instead of going for another injection.

We just walked away

And left our love…

Not so Peacefully resting.

 

 

 

 

 

A Finely-Tuned Machine

 “Dog Days are Over” delivered me my first encounter with Florence + the Machine. I have been captivated by Florence’s voice ever since. Florence emanates an overwhelming purity as she sings, which is enhanced by the fluidity of the band’s instrumentals.  The band’s newest album, Ceremonials generates eleven tracks showcasing Florence’s honestly soulful vocals through metaphoric lyrics that provoke contemplation. Every track on the album challenges the listener to delve deeper into the music and excavate meaning. The brand of music Florence + the Machine are pushing encourage and engage active listening; it’s not the kind of music to zone out to, rather it prods critical thinking. Throughout the album I deliberated on the signifance behind the lyrics, and consequently I found myself experiencing a myriad of emotions. “Shake it Out” struck me as ironic. Florence emotes an ethereal tone which made me feel carefree and liberated, yet she is talking about the darkness of suicide. “Lover to Lover” had me feeling energized. The vocal style Florence displayed combined with the organ’s wailing almost transported me to Motown in the 60’s; that’s how much soul the song possessed. Conversely, “Seven Devils” has an eerie demonic vibe that gave me chills, and not in a good way. Under Florence’s seance-like chanting lies a beat reminiscent of Jason’s theme music. Listening to this song had an effect similar to watching a horror movie. I felt my chest restrict and an unshakable uncomfortability slid over me from the moment the beat dropped until the last of the lyrics slithered out. “Seven Devils” is the most blatant example of the provative lyrics throughout the album that are designed to entice emotion and incite analysis. Ceremonials is undeniably an album everyone should lend their ear to, just be prepared to leave it with more than a few questions ruminating. But shouldn’t good music do that to us?

 
 

Infectious

         Many people are blessed with a voice capable of concocting beautiful tones.  However, few artists possess the ability to take their art and put it inside of you; to  manufacture melodies that materialize the emotions they convey.  Anhayla’s delivery transcends her music and makes it something tangible, something the listener can feel. As she sang it seemed as if the lyrics floated off of her vocal chords and wrapped around my ear drums. She exhibited an intonation that absolutely enchanted me.  “All I Want is You”, is the kind of song capable of  rejuvenating your hope for love. Then, “Stuck in Limbo” strikes down those hopes, as Anhayla illuminates the emotional havoc love wreaks. Not only is she beasting on tracks personally pioneered, she’s bodying covers. Anhayla’s vocal prowess is clarified in her acoustic rendition of Trey Songz, “We Can’t Be Friends”. Rawness oozed out the speakers, and her vocal versatility takes center-stage without the background of a beat. I thouroughly enjoyed her female counterparts to songs originally casted for males, like Miguel’s “Sure Thing”, and Lil’ Wayne’s “Single”. None of the covers feel forced thanks to Anhayla’s organic projection, and she adds spice to her versions with a sassy feminine touch. Anhayla has draped her talent in a unique presentation. The combination results in a dose of music that gets you feening, in all the right ways.